I have been thinking about it for the past few weeks and I
find it very hard to believe that its been 7 years already. It seems like it was just yesterday that Mom
called to tell me you were gone, 1 day before I was supposed to fly out to say
goodbye. I’ve finally forgiven you for
that, but I also know that you went out on your own terms, the way you wanted
to and I respect you for that. You didn’t
even let Mom say goodbye, you waited until she stepped away to make a few calls
and when she returned you had already left.
I’m sorry that I moved away and that I wasn’t there for you and Mom
those last few years. It is most
definitely one of the regrets I will carry with me the rest of my days.
I will always believe that you somehow had a hand in
bringing Jessi into this world. You had to since she was conceived a few months
after you passed and we had been trying for years to have a baby. I wish could be here seeing her grow up, seeing
her learn, hearing her laugh, and watching her play. You would totally adore her and she would
have you wrapped around her little finger as she does with me. She loves fishing, Spam, and talks all the
time about when we get to see “her people” again. Her people being Hawaiians. I have an inkling that you visit her from
time to time, just like you did shortly after she was born. Sadly she is at the age when she probably
won’t “see” you anymore since I have read that children lose that ability
between 5 and 7 years of age. I still
recall her looking at something in the corner of her room, almost like she was
watching someone. I remember asking her
if it was Grandpa Pete and she got the biggest smile on her face. There have been the little Hawaiian phrases
she has used as she has been growing up that I did not teach her. Even the way she squatted down to look at
something in the grass when she was 2, she must have seen you do it and was
copying you because I can remember that was your way of sitting down without
actually sitting down. She looks forward
to June when we are hoping to finally put you to rest in Hawaii and see all of the family, if the
reunion is still going on as planned.
I am sure you were happy to see your old friend Butch again,
may he rest in peace. He passed on the 13th
of this month and it has brought back a lot of memories. I got to talk to him briefly and was able to
thank him for all the good times and most of all, for playing and singing at
your funeral. Hopefully you guys have
been catching up and playing ukulele together.
I love you Dad. I miss you every day.
Your Son,
Jason