Saturday, May 28, 2011

Diet-Day something

So this diet... its been an experience to say the least. I just need to muster the discipline to effing stick with it. The good news is even though I've gone off track with it a number of times, I had lost another pound the other day when I weighed. Its time I grow up and start acting like an adult maybe? Take responsibility for my own actions? Maybe look towards my future and the future of my children so I can be here for them? Yeah, I think its time...

Saturday, May 14, 2011

My Diet- Day 3

Day 3- I am doing better than expected. I’ve lost 6 lbs in 3 days so far. Yes, I know most of this is water weight most likely, but I do notice my middle is a bit smaller. I still have a LONG ways to go, but it’s a great start. The diet is interesting thus far. The concepts are solid and are things I’ve known for years, it just seems to have put it all together into a diet. I wish I could have thought about doing that as this one was on the NY Times best seller list. I could be thin and rich. LOL

I do have to say its difficult grocery shopping with my daughter. When I’m alone, I can just got the items I want and be done with shopping. With my little one, however, we have to look at everything and its rough. Plus my previous behaviors we’d get all kinds of “fun” stuff like candy, donuts, cookies, soda, poptarts, etc. It was real rough last night. I had MAJOR cravings for stuff, but I managed to get out of there without ruining my diet. I did cheat a bit last night and had 4 of her fritos and abit of her chocolate milk. But not too bad overall.

This morning it was blackberries and plain yogurt, plus turkey sausage with onions. I did have to have coffee instead of the green tea this morning. But I’ll make up for that later. I need to go back and read through parts of the book again as I need some clarification on things and want to see what I have to look forward to in the second 17 phase of the diet.

I also need to incorporate more exercise into this. I still haven’t stepped foot into the gym, its almost like I’m afraid to go back. Not sure why, kind of weird in that respect. I’ve been walking at least. In fact, walking from the parking to my desk at work is ¼ mile. Its also a ¼ mile from my desk to the cafeteria and although I don’t eat there anymore, that is where the scale that I’ve been weighing myself on is located. So I’m walking at least an extra mile every day. But I know I need to add more. A friend on Twitter mentioned her husband benches over 300, I replied I used to be able to do that. I’d love to get there again, so maybe its time to start.

Ok, that’s all for now. Have a great weekend!

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

17 Day Diet- And so it begins...

Its time, or it has been time and I'm finally deciding to do something about it. I'm starting the 17-Day Diet tonight and hope that this will be the final push I need to be healthy again. Actually I’m restarting as it started it Monday and then had a really lousy day Tuesday and resorted to comfort foods instead of getting pissed off. I guess that’s a plus right? 

I'm really frustrated with myself as I had lost a good 60 lbs while going through the divorce with all the depression. But I've gained it all back and then some. Very, very frustrating!! I have a good friend who has just started this diet and she's lost 10 lbs already, only 8 days in. I've read most of the book and it has some interesting concepts. The majority of them make sense to me and are things I actually have known a long time, just haven't put them into practice. I've noticed that my self confidence has waned greatly since I have put on the extra weight. Even my two older children have remarked that I've gained a lot. So… its just time. I need to be here for them and for my kids, so not only is this a choice for me but its been a choice for them as I would like to be around to see them get married and to be able to hold my grandchildren. This also means getting my lazy ass to the gym. I been paying $30 a month for the damn membership and totally not going. I'm such an idiot and a lazy one to boot. Time for major life changes that I intend to make part of my life even after I've lost the necessary amount of weight I need to lose to be healthy and non-diabetic. I did it before and I know I can do it again. Its just so hard sometimes trying to juggle everything at the same time. 

Hopefully I can keep posting here and update my PROGRESS. I definitely need to do this… its now or never.